In case the last five posts (bracketed by Violent Femmes’ videos) weren’t clear, I’ve come to believe that the sicknesses I’m suffering from represent the early stages of the Black Sun process and that I’ll only find a true cure in its associated madness, which force I must learn to master and utilize or it will destroy me. Now, that doesn’t mean I’m going to give up on conventional treatment and medication – there’s real disease here whether it has a spiritual component or not – but this does recontextualize things. Of course I had my suspicions early on but resisted the diagnosis because it made too neat and, well, obvious a story, especially after all of the hullabaloo. C’est la vie. Guess I’m getting an early start on my Year 2 Goals.