One more thing. (And I’m writing all this as a reminder to myself more than anything else.)
The reason I’m not taking it easy, not letting myself off the hook even though I’ve had some rough blows, some legitimate obstacles that were outside my control?
Specifically this passage from J. Michael Straczynski’s The Book of Ezekiel:
Many times when he came to this place he spoke of being a hero someday. But that day was always the next day, never this day. He wanted the power to change the world, but he never used it because he was too busy … and because he did not understand. Didn’t understand that he had that power long before he ever came here. We think we cannot change things. We are wrong. We do not lack for power or influence or money. All we ever miss … is the moment of decision.
You can’t control anything in the world except how you respond to the world.
Peter Parker said yes, without hesitation.
Ezekiel said I’ll do it tomorrow.
One of them became a great man. The other did not.